The joy of human crowds…

You know, usually I like to hang out with people. I even enjoy meeting new people. But human crowds really give me the chills.

So this past few days was “Weekend on the Jade” in Wilhelmshaven (Germany). It’s this really huge fair with a flea market, yadda yadda. It’s really fun. Plus it has this really beautiful location since it’s at the port in the city.

First day the rain poured. You really looked like you fell into the docks.

But I really should get to the point of this post.

I really hate human crowds. Although not really. All I hate is the thing that so many people need to drink alcohol to be able to really party. So I hate drunken crowds. Lots of people acting stupid, talking a lot of crap. I just dont get it. Dont get me wrong… I also drink. But it doesnt make sense to me to get so drunk that you lose your mind and get black outs plus just talk stupid trash. I just know how far I can go without making myself a nerd.

So what I like to know is… why do you guys get drunk?

Donations of all kinds….

yes, yes I still suck with updating. But life is keeping me really busy.

So I was thinking about organ donation. The thing is that I think it’s a really, really great cause. but I dont have an organ donation pass just yet. And I will tell you why. I got the feeling that when I get me a pass I could battle destiny. Yeah it’s pathatic, right? I also kinda think that if a doctor sees that you are an organ donater chances are higher that they wont do everything to help you. My parents know that I wouldnt want to lay there being just alive because of machines. And they know that Im thinking about organ donation. So if anything happens to me I know they will do it. It just scares me beyond telling to consider dying some day. I lost a bunch of friends through car crashes and some family members so Im aware how short life can be. Death was always present in my life. But still I dont wanna think about my own death. I gotta say watching Men in Trees really got me thinking that I need to get me a pass. And well I think I really will do it. And that’s all because Men in Trees really inspired me to do it.

then there is blood donation. I never did it. Not because I dont want to or because Im scared of needles, no it’s because Im not good with giving blood. I dont even know which blood type I have. I’ll probably try it the next time it’s in my city. Because giving blood is an important thing. It saves a lot of life. If I break down after giving some blood, I at least did something good.

I also was tested for spinal cord a few years ago. But I never heard anything back. So Im not sure if Im still registered. But I wouldnt think twice to donate spinal cord if I would be a fit.

`Cuz all of this is really important and can save a lot of lives. I just had to share a few thougths.

Life has all shades of grey….

Wow, I haven’t updated this blog in a while. But you know, I was kinda busy. I just got back from spending a week in L.A.. I really, really love that city. I can’t even tell you why. Maybe it’s the sun. Maybe just the fact that L.A. is the city of dreams. Or maybe it’s because if you wanna be a writer, L.A. is the place to be.

The reason why I flew over is kinda crazy. I have to tell you a little bit before I get into L.A.. I used to be a huge fan of the TV Shows Buffy and Angel. I kinda got into the series back in 2000 when I decided I really wanted to quit smoking. Well, I needed to distract me so I started to watch TV. And Buffy got me really hooked. There were these really cool actors, great writing with funny stories but also very sad stories and this incredible fanbase, that did even have the pleasure to have a Posting Board that got writers and actors from the show to stop by and post with the fans. Around this time I decided that this writing was what I really wanted to do. These writers were the ones to inspire me to get me books about screenwriting and they also were it to encourage me to grab my keyboard and type away on my first script. But they weren’t the only ones to inspire me and to encourage me… my fellow Buffy/Angel did the same. The Bronze (the posting board) and later the Bronze Beta kinda became a second home for me. Sure it was only a place I could visited online. But this place had a lot of people that became very close friends for me. They were there through good and bad times. That’s what friends are for right. Every year the people from the Bronze organized a Party in L.A. where Bronzers had the chance to meet each other. Even the writers, actors and other crew members stopped by to meet the fans. These parties can’t be really discribed when you weren’t there. In 2002 I finally made it to my first party. And I had a blast. I finally was able to meet my friends in real life and I didn’t get disappointed. I met friends I already posted to and new friends I posted later with. This was an incredible experience I never would have wanted to miss. Through my love to the shows I met my dearest and closest friends. People I can’t imagine not having in my life. Even if I don’t see them very often since they are everywhere around the world. But they are the ones that encourage me to follow my dreams and to never give up. The last real party took place in 2003. I planned to be there but due family matters I couldn’t.

Point in this post was actually the reason for me flying to L.A. right? Not that I really would need a reason to fly to L.A. cuz it’s L.A. and that is enough. But after 10 years of Buffy some people decided to organize a get together of Bronzers. No question that I wanted to be there. I really wanted to see my friends again. So I decided to fly over to L.A. and I have to say it was really worth it. The party itself was this time really small with only 150 people and kinda just two vips of the show. But Darling Violetta and Four Star Mary played (if you dont know them go and check them out on myspace cuz they rock). And spending time with my friends just rocked. Not a surprise there cuz all my friends do rock.

Plus I saw Grey’s Anatomy’s very own Patrick Dempsey wandering down the Rodeo Drive. That gave me and my friend Suze a really fangirl moment. Sorry but hey he’s McDreamy and looks even better in real life so that deserves a fangirl moment. It’s not like we talked to him or chased after him… wait… no… we didn’t chase him… just walked behind him for a few moments. he kinda looked scared lol. But we had to get into the same direction anyway lol.

It was kinda sad that the day we arrived the writers strike was over. On the one hand I’m glad about it because that means I’ll get new episodes of all my favorite TV Shows but more important people will finally stop losing their jobs. so yay for that. But on the other hand it was kinda bad timing cuz I hoped I would be able to do some networking at the picket line. Nevermind.

They already started to set everything up for the Oscars which was fun to see.

I might post some pictures later.

So yes, L.A. was really fun…. and I would love to get back to the city soon. If anybody from you ever plans a trip to L.A. you really should visit Hollywood & Highland and the Universal City Walk which are my favorite places to be.

And after my L.A. trip I decided I would never again fly over Paris. That airport is the most chaotic one in the universe lol.

Oh and there is the fact that I turned 25 today. And I’m kinda frustrated about the fact. It’s not like I don’t wanna get older. It’s just the fact that getting older and not having achieved anything bothers me. Okay, I made my dream come true to visit my favorite city Los Angeles. But I mean more the job front that frustrates me. And I really wanna change that. I really need to do something about it.

So I probably should come up with a new Spec Script that I can show around. Now the question is which show do i want to spec. mmh… it might be Grey’s Anatomy, Bones, Without a Trace (but I still have a WaT script laying around which needs a lot of rewrites thanks to the writers for putting character development in the show) but it could also turn out to become a Heroes script. You never know which show I take because I watch a LOT of TV Shows.

Anyway, I really should get going. I need to get a little bit of sleep before I can celebrate my birthday.
But if you wanna comment on my blog go ahead I won’t bite. I’m not so evil how people tell about me.

Luv, Nic

Writing is a passion, Storytelling a gift. See what Stories I have to tell…

I’m very much into writing. It’s just something I enjoy since I can propably hold a pen. As kid I used to listen to audio books. Once I finished the books, I made up my own stories. I always loved to let my fantasy play and come up with something new.

So I was thinking what I wanted to do with my life. It doesn’t matter how ofter I did think about it I always come up with the same thing: writing. And since I also love tv, Screenwriter would be a dream come true.

If you’re an aspiring writer you really should check out http://www.janeespenson.com . Jane is blogging about writing and gives all kinds of good advice.

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